when is too late

when i thought i won't believe in love anymore.
when i thought i won't be happy anymore.
when i thought i won't believe in guys anymore.

i met him, E.


he taught me so many things
he taught me to believe in love once more.
he taught me to be happy.
he taught me i can still believe in guys.


he is the one that pull me out of the 7 years blackhole


he is the one so smart and dumb in his own ways.


when things happened, he said he will be there for me.
when things go wrong, i know he will make it right for me.
i know i can rely on him.



how i wish i could turn back time.
how i wish i could be more expressive
how i wish i could trust him even more-for everything he had said and done for me
how i wish i could understand his hints earlier and even better
how i wish i could have the self confidence in myself to believe in love
how i wish i could have said things i really mean
how i wish i could have told him my inner feellings
how i wish everything will not be the way it is now
how i wish fate would not play this kind of joke on me




and........................................




we shared so many similarities.
we accepted each other's differences.
we were really happy with each other's company



but.......................................
many things were left unsaid
fate played such a great joke on us



i miss him so.
but i can't say so.



he told me: " We could be really possible back then. I really enjoy every moment with u. Cuz i m reali happy with u ard. But many things were left unsaid. i thought we had no choice but to remain as friends. IF ONLY, YOU COULD BE MORE EXPRESSIVE."



is too late. everything is too late. in fact, i was only 2 days late.




yes. i teared. so badly. my friends were shocked. my mum was puzzled. Who could have the power to make mi teared so badly again other den zh. YES! is him, E.




i blocked him on msn. but i just can't bear to delete him off my contact list.




today,
i saw a change in his display picture in friendster.
a picture of him & his gf.
happy
smiles
happiness
warmth
everything that i missed.




i was late. a bit too late. 2 days late.





if only,
i had been more expressive and understood his hints.









i'm confident. i will be in his display pic.
happy.
smiles.
happiness.
warmth.
everything will be mine




i hope u are really happy.
u've my regards.